Wednesday, November 30, 2005 @12:50 am
due to overwhelming sadness of officially leaving the band, and fatigue of course, i overlooked one thing in the last entry.
that's to thank every one who came to support. hey friends and family and spiritual family, i appreciate your coming to support! esp my dearest eve and mindy, sarah and geraldine, charlene, wina and jarelyn!! love ya darlingsss and thanks for the chocs and flowers! hehs..
to fel darling and bh and KO and KO's girlfriend, thanks for coming too! appreciate itt. esp felll cos i miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....
and to hannie kor and gs! thanks for coming. really.. and hannie kor is the best!
to darling shinnie who helped chase buggers away from the circle area, you're like the most efficient usher ever!
to denise jie and joseph kor, thanks so much for the flowers.. they're so pretty! and thanks for coming to support me! you're my family, and i absolutely love you both!
haha lastly to corne, thanks for coming, kiddo! lol.
to sarah jane teo that lovely darling.. okay. not so lovely. more like manly. LOL just kidding laaaa. cute laa hamster laaa hor?? hahaha. anyways THANKS FOR DA FLOWER! pleasantly surprised. so sweet of u.. hehs -hugg-
oh and to zhong qing, thanks for coming too, it meant a lot a lot to your students you know! (((((=
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Sunday, November 27, 2005 @6:27 pm
It's finally over..
Rondeau 20th. In celebration of our 20th Rondeau concert?
yuppp. and also a sad day for us third years, no? especially the Rondeau comm.. all of us whom are dedicated to this band, people who slogged harder than ever for the past two concerts.
I appreciate the chance to be working with my committee. Never had such a good time working on something so major with a group of people before. It's been an honour.
And, i think the concert was a success to me. ((= my section sounded great, i think. To all of whom don't agree, nevermind. hahaha. i still think my section sounded great. haha.
to my section: horniee people!!! you've done extremely well! i absolutely adore each and every one of u. i really do.. it's like the first time i had people of the same batch as me in my section. so to szeto, fatt, peee and leen.. i love u all!!! it's great to have people like you around me all the time..
and, the man who made it all happen, Mr. Tan. He's the best laaa. i kept laughing throughout the concert ! he kinda helped eased the anxiety.
i felt that it was just a practice session after all! haha.
Oh!!! BIG THANKS SO DARRYL AND VALERIE, my lovely and handsome emcees!!! thank you so much for helping!!
to soloists, jefferson & wenwei, your solos were damn zai ! and jeff, i especially loved loved your jap graf solo. not the pause note one. hahaha the second solo!
and Daryl Hor! your jap graf solo rocked the hall!!!!
HORNS!! we sounded fabulous in alleluia!
so after everything, my heart is feeling a great big ache. yuppp. hahaha. i dunno how to explain this heart ache. i set in quite tho. amidst all the excitement, i forgot all about leaving. but i guess, again, hehs. things will definitely smoothen out. right? haha. for you all to answer and for me to find out.
-i'm so tired, i havent e slightest idea what i've typed so far.
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Friday, November 25, 2005 @2:15 am
well excuse me for being blunt.
i dont get why damned alumni band is so exclusive. sorry if you're offended, but i dont get why u insist on play time on OUR concert, insist on a combined alvarmar, REFUSE to come for a prac with us ( dont u dare say we should stay back for you), and refuse to come just slightly earlier for prac with us ON THE ACTUAL DAY.
HELLOOOOOOOO. CONCERT STARTS AT 6!! ASKING THE ALUMNI BAND TO COME AT 3.30 TO REHEARSE WITH US, IS IT TOO MUCH?! DAMN!
Anthony (and i dont mean to use profanities) but you're such a shithead, you freaking bugger. don't push your luck too far okay. compromise? your shit head, sucker. who do you freaking think you are? so after we said no alvarmar. you said u'd use alvarmar as ur stupid encore. who the hell cares abt you enough to shout for an encore for you? freaking shit head. it's OUR concert. the MAIN BAND concert. not the freakng ALUMNI concert.
so now you expect the full alumni band with the power players of the main band.
WHO THE SHIT DO U THINK YOU ARE?
and as if the main band would willingly play the piece with you? naive? or just plain stubborn? do you not already know of the band's reluctance to even come into contact with you? i wish not to speak for the whole of the alumni, but SORRY, ALUMNI BAND. YOU'VE CHOSEN THE WRONG PERSON TO HEAD U. please teach him how to be a person first.
my gawd. you're like a father la. grow up please?
and please. once again. this Rondeau 20, WAS NEVER MEANT FOR YOU. if it were me, not wenbin or merrill who spoke to you, I'd insist on NO all the way. and you bet i could argue my way thru my decision. If WB and Merrill hadnt been nice enough to give u some space. i think our concert would be doing just fine. it doesnt mean you're older that you get special incentives okay. i'm buying flowers and presents for you okay. APPRECIATE IT, FREELOADER.
................. totally pissed off.
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Thursday, November 24, 2005 @12:44 am
have u tried crying everyday for 4 days, skip a day, and cry every day again for another 3-4 days?
i think i'm going thru that.
NOT NICE AT ALL.
when will i break free?
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Monday, November 21, 2005 @1:03 am
peng peng hu
ping hu
dong nan xi bei
hong zhong, fa, bai ban.
i've been so stressed and tired with band and some stupid people, i've begun to seek solace in playing highly & dangerously addictive games. okay. only one - mahjong.
like omg. mungen me.
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Friday, November 18, 2005 @1:40 am
had a good PR lesson today.
and just for your information, Rondeau is about 9-10 days away. prolly 8 now. only.
a few questions to ask again.
hey,
honestly, what first springs in your mind when mass comm is mentioned?
what do u mean when u give a shocked "oh! you're from mass comm?" question when i tell you i'm from mass comm?
what is your general perception of a mass comm student?
really, is it that bad?
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005 @10:18 am
i'm sitting alone in the clubhouse, wondering what i should do, really.
should I:
1) go down to canteen to buy some food
2) go shit
3) continue doing the booklet?
I'm in such a dilemma.
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Monday, November 07, 2005 @1:19 pm
There are a few questions i've been dying to ask:
How to people cheat on their friends for such a long time without feeling any pangs of guilt?
Do they not realise that their friends already know they're hideous two-headed serpents?
Why do they not even apologise after so long? (this links back to the first question)
So, do you really expect a confrontation before you'd reflect on your deeds?
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Saturday, November 05, 2005 @1:11 am
why do parents always wanna barge into their childrens' lives and spoil everything?
okay. not barge. they have every right to i guess. but why do some parents want to take charge of even their kids' love lives?
i dont get it. it status really that impt? is money really more impt than love on its own? what is marriage or a relationship built on? just money alone? so what, as long as there's money, everyone lives happily ever after?
what is money when there's no love? why is it when the daughter finds a good guy, and just because his status doesnt match theirs, he's not worth loving huh? isnt he worth loving just as much as every other good guy?!
or at least, people around him and their daughter know that he's worth loving okay.
darn.
to you and you, whom i greatly care about. dont give up on yourselves, dont give up on each other okay? even when you know you're going thru great torment, take comfort in the fact that you're not going thru this alone. the other one is prolly going thru more pain than you. the other person prolly wants you to have a better life instead of having to go thru the torment, the other person is prolly willing to go thru the torment of losing u than to make u go thru such torment.
dont do that to each other when u love each other so much. unless u dont love each other anymore, i dont see a reason why u should leave each other.
i love you both*
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005 @7:46 pm
it's been a week plus since i've last posted an entry.
welcome back to school, you may say. the first week of school only has like 2 hours of class for me.
ah, nothing much has been happening lately. all i know is that i've got quite a number of things lined up for me to do, i'll just do them asap.
realise the heat's been like crazy la. oh i meant the weather. it's been damn terrible la. cannot take it.
and everyone's temper is urhh. getting bad too. hahaha. oh well -shrug-
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